On the Wednesday where I have to pass up my HUGE assignment... I recieved a shocking news from home... My dad had stroke...
With the first impression, my heart suddenly sank into emptiness when I got the info from my brother. I really feel a sudden blank in my heart, and paused for quite a long time. My bro was crying on the other side... And I suddenly fell into a traumatized position.
Then, I went out to express... Expressing my rage... Sadness... Regret... All the things I do not appriciate in my past few days towards my dad. I quickly jog outside to release all this unwanted emotions... (Of course to buy the neccessary stuff for my assignment. The whole 1 hour and a half outside made me relax...
What makes it much more relaxing is the punishment of God towards my indespicable behaviour... After, I got the infofrom my mum that my dad is ok... I gave a sudden relief, yet still feel uneasy and worried... Soon after, I speak silently in my heart... "Oh God, I regret on my behaviour on not caring for my dad... Please let him be safe and punish me instead..."
I got my punishment alright... And it is a heavy downfall of water from the skies... I don't know this is the reaction of God towards my behaviour... Or merely BAD LUCK!!!
Anyhow, I rushed back hom on Thursday. In the Afternoon, I went to pick up my dad in the hospital. I did not cry since then. He is back to his old wacky dad I used to have... The doctor said it is a minor stroke, my dad manage to reverse the stroke by himself and back to his normal self. So a sign of relief hit me.
Although I told him not to work in the next few days... He just couldn't listen... That's my dad's attitude... But he had tried to cut down on the workload.
Thank you all frenz for giving me the support I need in the few days of worrying. Your concern is very much appriciated. Speaking of appriciation, I felt I need to put more concern to my dad and hope that I won't regret the next time if something bad happen...
3 years ago