I have opened another topic. The evil side of me. I call the new category <7>
I just finished presented my literature on a novel I have studied, Lord of the Flies. I love that story and do a lot of research for myself. So many research, that even the experts in the internet, (like Spark Notes and BookRags) did not even state the issue out.
And today, I presented my findings in front of the class. Pn. Zarina, my lecturer find it interesting and describe my presentation as "Very unique... Something different but correct... Very good"
I was happy... At the same time, I notice my classmates starts to copy my slides. Then I have to say an evil side of me emerge in my body.
I felt I am stupid... No, EXTREMELY STUPID on presenting my own creation to the class. Now that they have my points, I felt that they would most probably use my point in the exam or something.
I know this is wrong, but I truly got the feeling of regret, and a bit of hatred towards the others that got my unique point. It has become not unique anymore if I use it in my essay in exam, as all the others will use my point as well.
This is a very ad attitude of me, but at least i keep to myself and not saying it out. But then again, having to comit the sin Greed for Knowledge... I truly am... I want to become one of those unique people with wonderful ideas. The Greed has increwasing inside me, and I felt it is hard to control if this goes on.
Do I make the right decision on presenting? I don't know... but I shall see the result sooner in the exam. I really hope this is the suicidal move I made that may cost me to fail in the exam. I'm afraid...
2 years ago