A sign of Relief...

On the Wednesday where I have to pass up my HUGE assignment... I recieved a shocking news from home... My dad had stroke...

With the first impression, my heart suddenly sank into emptiness when I got the info from my brother. I really feel a sudden blank in my heart, and paused for quite a long time. My bro was crying on the other side... And I suddenly fell into a traumatized position.

Then, I went out to express... Expressing my rage... Sadness... Regret... All the things I do not appriciate in my past few days towards my dad. I quickly jog outside to release all this unwanted emotions... (Of course to buy the neccessary stuff for my assignment. The whole 1 hour and a half outside made me relax...

What makes it much more relaxing is the punishment of God towards my indespicable behaviour... After, I got the infofrom my mum that my dad is ok... I gave a sudden relief, yet still feel uneasy and worried... Soon after, I speak silently in my heart... "Oh God, I regret on my behaviour on not caring for my dad... Please let him be safe and punish me instead..."

I got my punishment alright... And it is a heavy downfall of water from the skies... I don't know this is the reaction of God towards my behaviour... Or merely BAD LUCK!!!

Anyhow, I rushed back hom on Thursday. In the Afternoon, I went to pick up my dad in the hospital. I did not cry since then. He is back to his old wacky dad I used to have... The doctor said it is a minor stroke, my dad manage to reverse the stroke by himself and back to his normal self. So a sign of relief hit me.

Although I told him not to work in the next few days... He just couldn't listen... That's my dad's attitude... But he had tried to cut down on the workload.

Thank you all frenz for giving me the support I need in the few days of worrying. Your concern is very much appriciated. Speaking of appriciation, I felt I need to put more concern to my dad and hope that I won't regret the next time if something bad happen...

The Greed for Knowledge

I have opened another topic. The evil side of me. I call the new category <7>

Greed...

I just finished presented my literature on a novel I have studied, Lord of the Flies. I love that story and do a lot of research for myself. So many research, that even the experts in the internet, (like Spark Notes and BookRags) did not even state the issue out.

And today, I presented my findings in front of the class. Pn. Zarina, my lecturer find it interesting and describe my presentation as "Very unique... Something different but correct... Very good"

I was happy... At the same time, I notice my classmates starts to copy my slides. Then I have to say an evil side of me emerge in my body.

I felt I am stupid... No, EXTREMELY STUPID on presenting my own creation to the class. Now that they have my points, I felt that they would most probably use my point in the exam or something.

I know this is wrong, but I truly got the feeling of regret, and a bit of hatred towards the others that got my unique point. It has become not unique anymore if I use it in my essay in exam, as all the others will use my point as well.

This is a very ad attitude of me, but at least i keep to myself and not saying it out. But then again, having to comit the sin Greed for Knowledge... I truly am... I want to become one of those unique people with wonderful ideas. The Greed has increwasing inside me, and I felt it is hard to control if this goes on.

Do I make the right decision on presenting? I don't know... but I shall see the result sooner in the exam. I really hope this is the suicidal move I made that may cost me to fail in the exam. I'm afraid...

RAIN!!! Finally...

If someone ask... What is the most stupidest thing you have done recently... I would plainly answer them... "Jogging in heavy rain."

It's been one and a half month the state of Jitra has not having any rain. Nevertheless, yesterday, I heard the wonderful sound of tunderstorm.

It was a heavy rain... But when it went small at 4.45, don't know what hit me but I suddenly change into my sportswear... and went jogging on the road.

The rain gets even heavier as I jog... But... I felt happy. I felt COMPLETELY DEStressed!!! The stress from the 4 FREAKING LONG ASSIGNMENT is gone. The rain cool me down, while my body warm up at the same time.

I met a few of my juniors alongthe way, ad they must think I'm crazy... Actually... I AM CRAZY at that moment... So, this is what CRAZY PEOPLE DO!!! WAHAHAHAHHA...

A taste of school...

As I'm going to become an English teacher... (Though my English is still a big pain) I have been put into School Experiance for 2 weeks. This SE programme really made me become more mature... And more Teacherly... (You can't stop thinking when students call you teacher... Or sir...)

Nevertheless, I have my fun time here, and I tried entring classes befor. FYI, the school here is labeled as... "Thoses students who are not able to go to other schools in the area of Kubang Pasu were forced to study here..."

I had a bad feeling at the first day, yet, to my suprise, the students were VERY friendly... No kidding. I had yet to see any students in my life that close to teachers. Sure their English profficiency was EXTREMELY HORRIBLE, but they were at least more polite than my old school!!!

Funny thing is... The teachers here is still the smae old same old... (Like complaining about some facilities... Sports Day problem... etc) Neverhteless, they were friendly and entertain us all the way in the 2 weeks. I felt the caring I recieved these 2 days were extremely overwhelming.

After this experiance, I am more sure of myself, I can do this... Sure, there certainly be some downside in every turns, but this is the road taken by me... And I don't regret it...

Neoclassical genre: My current fav!!!

I've been scrolling down the net for some new songs. Then I found one artist: Kanon Wakeshima.

OK... Go on call me anime FREAK!!! But I can't stop watching it... Anyway, I check the type of song she sings... It's Neoclassical.

What is it? A new term for me. It contains some elements of darkness... However, it is not like those in Black Metal. Instead, it is classical. The combination of Darkness and Classical Music. Mostly involve Cello and Violin.

It is important for this type of music to create an eerie feeling when you listen to it. Your hair really stand at it's end, yet it is a wonderful melody to be heard.

Kanon Wakeshima is one of those artist that perform Neoclassical music. Although in Japanese, but her effects towards listener (me) is huge!!!

If you have time, find her song Still Doll, and Sunna no Oshiro. Give a taste for the wierd kind of music... You'll find it... Disturbing yet intresting!!!

Shoes vs. Leaders of the world...

Now the worlds top leader has a new enemy... SHOES!!!

Case 1:
Previously, we saw an awesome display of drama, action, in a "movie" call . We can see that during Bush'es speech, he was given a "tasty treat"... A Shoe in the FacE!!!

After this incident, there was a memorial in Iraq, where a shoe sculpture is made to remember the "Brilliant Chef" who prepare this wonderful delicacy to the ex US president...


Case 2:
Today, I notice another rip-off movie that change the character in the previous movie called


Being the "Second strongest country in the world", China's PM visit UK for a speech... Only to be found a protestor throwing shoe at him...

Unlike the previous movie, this one is a complete irony... The security guard kicked the protestor out. Then Wen Jia Bao siad... "This despicable behaviour cannot stand in the way of friendship between China and the UK"

After the this sentence, the whole auditarium stood up and applaud for him!!!

Irony is it?


So what's up with Leaders and Shoe? Who knows?
Maybe Malaysia will have this fate too!!! When will the time comes...

Celebrate and NO Work PLZ!

Hello Brand new year!!! For the Chinese callender of course...

What I want for this CNY?

1. No Homework for 5 days... =P

2. Get tons of ANGPAU!!!

3. Eat a lot of DELICIOUS Biscuits!!! (Hopefully not too much till get fatter!!!)

4. Get MORE Angpau!!!

5. Celebrate CNY w. My Friends... (Probably my last...T_T)

6. Did I say I want MORE angpau?... (-_-lll)

7. Mandrin Oranges.... (Drooling...)

8. More Angpau... Oh yeah, I've mentioned it already right?

Anyway... To all Chinese out there... And my beloved friends... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!